I live beside a true spring . . .

...In progress ...

It took me some months, perhaps years? before I knew them to be there, and then stood beside them. Springs. Source. and you guys who know me know I have ever sought out True Source, and here is an example. Ever brimming from Place outside our understanding, most true Being.

A song calling me to Most High Good voiced itself there. that first song, like a texas prairie backyard song. That was eight years ago now, i believe.

and just today my mama -- in the landscape of my heart -- is gently with me, lifts her head, listens and then sings now with me. This is New. it has been a long time since I sang with my mom, ever since she left, and somehow for a moment I was with her today. hallelujah.

How did this happen? (uh-oh, daddyBill Perkins big breath ready-to-tell-a-long-tale mode, haha) Last year, I was living the first year without any one of my mother's nuclear family, the jeweled-soul Nancy -- an outstanding Example of what might be possible as a human being, and as you ponder her she is pointing Upward so you know it is her relationship to Most High that is her Source -- I was living through a calendar of mourning/praising/celebrating for that Precious One. Her distinctive strength of character born out of the early 20th century we are all so fortunate who had direct experience The calendar revealed itself from an initial 40 days to a second to a third, and then I saw it was a necklace of nine loops of 40 pearls and would span the Year. It was somehow already set and I could only follow.

And so I see I am reporting here about it, and what a revelation, in that space, to come to April for Aunt Nancy, for my mama, but even more for their mother, Jean Mc__ Salisbury, that April became a centerpiece in that beautiful necklace of Attention/Honoring.
was year two of Aunt Nancy's passing I celebrate April as a joyful spot in the heart of my grandmother, Jean Salisbury, my Pana.

here's to my Pana's April, where she got to play joyful triumphant music for every Easter on the organ, and then gave birth to her namesake, Jean Carol Salisbury, on the second day of April, 1917. And then six years later gave birth to the miracle Nancy at the end of the month. May we all be blessed with such a relationship with faith and family.

real slow guitar, Ooom...Dnt ooom-dnt Ooom-Dnt ooom-dnt Ooom-Dnt ooom-dnt

Purify me, oh Lord, from your always flowing Spring
Pour your transforming waters over me.

Purify me, oh Lord, in your Ever-Brimmin' Spring
wash me
in your
Tenderness
& Grace

and that
fearless freedom
that lights your Face,
ho!

and all the
Love and Wisdom
youCanLoadMeDownWith
today,
Lord!

Pour your transforming Wisdom in through me.

I experience my True Source as an Indigenous God

Most High Inspired Clarity has more easily arisen for me when I am out in nature, the early vast prairie sunsets from our prairie hill, and later, wandering the paths of my mountain in california.

and often in my youth, the ceilings and walls of a churchspace confined my sense of the grandeur of the divine, Holy Spirit flowing through all Life.

So it was a great of gift of Holy Spirit to me that I got to spend some years deeply seeing the indigenous art of a pocket of southern California, the Perris and San Jacinto valleys, where a clear Creator God was devotedly celebrated. My dreams responded with this early-man level of art, often raw, highly abstracted graphic imagery. It seemed some level of my being understood directly this "language of the spirit" and has given me insight and courage to boldly explore the sacred life within and without.

But I should say that way before that, in San Antonio experimenting with a visualization meditation method called Silva Mind Control, and influenced by Carlos Castaneda's shamanistic world view, my ability to view/be/witness the space of an interior spiritual landscape caused me to have long ago stepped out of the traditional Christian trappings I was raised in, Take No Other God before Me, and seek out the Most High God no matter where it took me -- except!!! Just in case, I always visualized an illuminated, shimmering Cross risen above me, an umbrella of safety that keeps evil and Moth-like usurpers out of my spiritual quest and on a path Most True.

I have it confirmed in my heart that Emmanuel, the Christ with me, indeed does accompany me in my quests, and is glad for my experiments in Spirit, is glad I can reconcile the indigenous gods of early Man with the indigenous God of the Hebrews, who has been so boldly documented by a most highly civilized peoples, whose Wisdom has been inherited by my peoples through the Hebrew Jesus of Nazareth, who bequeathed the promise to each of us and was in flesh, in fact, most high god.

I will stop there for now.

dreaming sears again

(from journal notes online, see Outgoing) wildly dreaming sears again:

yoga, i was thinking and the 40 second stretch for openers, that i wanted to write down right then my proposal to Steve in particular, copy to all, incl helena? and the human resources guy that visited us 2 years ago? anyway what?

Thesis: the Sears stores of the Northwest could be a dynamic player in defining the next expression of the Brand. You could hypothesize that we are living in some next Last Stand phase for sears stores. If that is so, perhaps the NW Sears operation could develop enterprise that rekindles customer interest and grows our base. That is my sense of the possibility now, if the "young turks" on the ground helped to make it so and higher management joins to new possibilities.

I have a couple of bold, big picture dreamings, haha, and several smaller picture projects/schemes, and then -- like the following proposal you are already familiar with -- just everyday operations dreamings. So,

A simple Starter:
Begin our morning rally with 40-seconds focusing on stretching and deep breathing.

Not only does this help loosen up and charge the body/mind/attitude machine of every associate, brain science demonstrates how wholesome a few seconds of such action revitalizes the entire system, including one's heart, balance, mood, and endurance.

Our training module on Health and Safety declare that every shift should begin with some stretching, so what better reason than to institute it and do some together?

Two times, Bruce and Steve have impromptu and kind of jokingly let me lead a starting stretch, and it was surprising to me the encouraging feedback I got from the some our best workers. Zach in shoes, for instance, after the most recent time, thanked me for giving him a good excuse to set himself up for the next part of his shift. He said something like " I'd like to warm-up, but wouldn't do it on my own out there. This gives me a great excuse!" The other time i led it was a good year ago, so many folks aren't around, but the different ages and types of folks that made a point to say it was terrific was very encouraging.

Those two times, I was caught by surprise, so it was a pitiful, thin version of what i am proposing. I think if I were able to truly prepare and lead it a few times, everyone would catch on and anyone could lead it, in fact, different variations would be SO fun. I do believe it would be a big hit -- even if it were also an excuse to groan and complain, haha -- and be a natural, wholesome addition to the morning rally. 

I also think it would be the kind of thing that would be worth a news story, or Facebook post, about brain science practice at Sears, haha. seriously.

Good light on the Human Measure

This is beautiful

From this collection

dreaming Sears in 20 minute increments

20 minute increments

* organize and gather up all the chrome in hard lines closets. 

(Ask for a guide of Jeremy's to introduce me to the rules of the room. Is there someone in charge of it, like Stacey in the back?)

* get a tour and learn the rules of the room. Other store rooms for display?

(Red cloths)

Learn how to send and send PDFs of Floor plan and tools (Xmas map)

Hector on a Grandpa Craftsmen position opening middle and close all through Christmas, break them in starting in July.

July, have the already roughed out history display outside on the mall hall wall. Did not go far enough though on the history.

Draw out the Merchandizing Library Tower. Draw out the Kmart entrance. 

Haha, maybe PNCA would help me?!

And the brains & designers behind those other merchandize centers like Bridgeport and Cascade Station would help. they had their Oregon City proposal get nixed, but maybe they would enjoy this humble undertaking.

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